Tinkering with my 3D Printer. It’s a filament printer, but after a lot of fine tuning, I’m able to print small D&D miniatures with mixed quality. It’s not perfect, but it is getting closer.
Ignoring abuse.
I didn’t say it was healthy, I just said I’ve improved at it.
This july I finally realized that I have no choice but consciously change the ways I think and react to things. There has been plenty of difficult things in my life the last couple of years and after experiencing a burnout (again, I understood afterwards it’s not the first time but hasn’t been this bad before) this summer I had to look myself in the mirror and decide to start making changes, things can’t go on like this anymore, I can’t keep on living like this anymore. It’s sad that it seems often these realizations only come when one hits the bottom in a way or another.
I’ve been to a 3-year therapy and tried meds and so on, I’m sure they “paved the path” but didn’t help me comprehend why I have these troubles that I have and didn’t give me the understanding/empathy towards myself and others that is needed to actually change the thought and reaction models that are problematic, especially anger and shame issues.
Anyways I’ve been looking at videos on youtube about CPTSD and they have helped me a lot. Especially I find Tim Fletcher’s videos useful as he thoroughly looks into the underlying issues and different ways CPTSD shows up in people, just the facts as they are. He’s kind of an old school lecturer type guy, nothing fancy and shiny (needs to be taken with a grain of salt though as he doesn’t seem to have understanding on ADHD/autism and has religious aspects in some of his videos).
Of course being recently diagnosed with ADHD gives more light to why I’m the way I am. But now I’ve been able to start to work on my stuff from a different angle and it seems to take an effect! A difficult and rocky path but I suppose the first steps are the hardest.
I’m learning to drive. After a big pause I felt like I forgot everything completely, but since I started doing lessons regularly again I can see steady improvements
Congrats! How long until you’re finished?
Long way for now, but I slowly start to see the light at the end of a tunnel :)
Word of caution: The light is generally an incoming train.
Living on my own and being independent. It’s a kind of constant process. But still.
It’s hard at first but very liberating. Enjoy the freedom :)
That’s also true B)
Nothing, if anything I’ve gotten worse at things.
Now, whose fault is that?
They could have a deteriorating condition :/
Or they are a 35 year old male suffering from depression who blames everything and everyone else in the world for their suffering other than take an ounce of blame for their situation.
I’m not some tough guy who typically preaches “pull yourself up by the bootstraps” motivation. This guy needs a reality check.
This may seems harsh, but I reccommend people take a look at platypus’s profile (the person ninemiletower is calling out).
They are 35 years old, have posted a lot of this sort of stuff, and have not actually mentioned any physical issue or disabilities over the course of their very public pity party.
Pity party? I’m commenting how fucked is my life, because that’s the reality I’m living, I never asked to feel bad for me.
No I don’t I already live that reality.
If they do, they have never mentioned it over a fairly long course of posting “everything sucks” and not accepting any advice. Check their posting history.
What advice? “Change your life, move outside, study” that’s middle class shit, I’m not allowed plus my city doesn’t give you any type of help. I literally looked the online site for the town, it hasn’t being updated in a year.
Nobody I guess. The world keeps fucking me even when I try.
Everyone on this planet suffers from something. You are not alone in it. The world in neutral and is not out to fuck you.
When you realize you aren’t a victim of fate, you empower yourself to achieve great things. You aren’t special, and the world is not out to fuck you over. Sorry. It’s hard to hear, but it’s a good thing. You can achieve anything anyone else can.
It’s no one’s fault, but yours. However, that’s good because you control whether or not that changes.
Absolute Bs, I want to work, do some stuff yet nobody gives me the chance. Is like I’m invisible and that’s out of my hands
“Then become someone else, grew and be better” AKA invest money and time I don’t have… I’m fucked either way
Ok, so stay in your situation, stew in your negativity, and blame the world.
You have options. They may take time, but you are choosing to suffer. We all choose to suffer or not. No one dictated what you can do but you.
Negativity? Is a reality I don’t think you understand. I don’t have access to any help. And I’m not alone. Why do you think many people low class and immigrants like me become criminals? Do you think most of them love it? No, but even criminals need to pay the bills or they will get evicted.
You sound privileged, I don’t expect you to understand. But realize that many people aren’t like you, I can’t even get a fast food job. That’s how impossible my life is.
Without detail, I’ve been to hell and back brother. No one’s going to help you but you. I hope you find whatever peace it is that you are looking for.