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Armchair psychologist here also trying to figure himself out before the inevitable end.

I don’t think this is as much of an uncontrollable craze as it is hyper-awareness of your passive actions/thoughts. Imagine the opposite of complete, nothing to react to, ignorance x 10. I’m a perfectionist and a problem solver. I have to earn leisure through productivity. I constantly desire more of everything. I’m over-observant with grainy photographic memory. AND I’m hyper-aware of everything all the time. It may be my brain’s desire to consume or collect information, even if it’s trivial or irrelevant. This includes the passively hyper-focused observation of others.

You do it with dudes as well. Pets, cars, mailboxes. You get the idea. The only reason women stand out to you is likely because that’s just what you’re interested in. There was some faux research done a million years ago about how frequently men think about sex, and it was just short of nearly all the time. Since then debunked, but I still think it’s impossible for researchers to access the human subconscious, or our background processes. But like you said, you’re a heterosexual guy. It’s what we do. I too look at everyone I cross. Some stick with me, some generate uncontrollable thoughts or controllable urges.

I haven’t a clue what our current purpose is beyond the parasitization of Earth, but I imagine like all other living, breathing mammalia and friends, we were built for procreation, so it’s also only natural your brain is hot for the ladies. You’re just oversensitive to your thoughts, and then obsess over the thoughts, and then wind up here seeking advice. Or wait, is that me?

Kids (1995)

Similar to Requiem, a one-time-only must-watch.

Requiem for a Dream. You’re absolutely correct, a one-time-only must-watch. I always enjoyed re-watching films with friends, but this one is a no go. One thousand years ago, I added the DVD release to my collection on release. Where I grew up, our movie theater only carried ultra-mainstream titles, so when films like Requiem released to theaters, it was either a 2+ hour trek to the nearest metropolitan area or just wait for it to release on DVD. I could be misremembering, but I believe the DVD case was one of those awful cardboard cases with the plastic clip. Anyway, it was mixed in with the rest of the DVD collection I proudly displayed in my living room (we all did this). At least until I had to refuse requested viewing by different guests not once, but twice. Fortunately, somewhere around that same time, I pumped the brakes on tangible media, and started gathering digital rips. Packed all that valueless stuff up, and shoved it up in the attic.

I fear Dems will see just how easily we’ve bent over for the current administration, and realize they can get away with it too. I’ve said it ad nauseam – when did we decide to start trusting the government? Any government? I’m right in the middle of my expected lifespan, and I never once trusted my government. Why would I? They’ve done nothing positive for my generation, and every slight success is quickly dismissed or disqualified by the next dipshit with deep enough pockets to rule the land. This isn’t democracy, and it never has been. The “people’s vote” has never mattered. It’s just another smoke surrounded mirror providing the illusion that democracy exists. Hell, the only reason the word democracy probably exists in our history is to make us believe that such an impossibility is reality. Mark my words and those of others, the only difference between the two parties? One is full of fascist, pedophile, sex offenders and the other is full of fascist, pedophile, sex offenders. The female leaders in both parties are just enablers, otherwise they wouldn’t put up with the shit and take to the streets. Same for our more diverse leaders. If they rock the boat too hard, they’re out a paycheck and some sweet, sweet insider trading. The whole system is dead, and I fear revolution is the only answer to the madness. But we’ve become too complacent and docile to fight. We’re too busy trying to make ends meet to have the necessary reserve energy to fight for rights which probably never truly mattered in the first place. Just stuff written down that **we’re **advised to follow or face penalties. None of the people in power ever follow their own rules or the rules commanded by the people. When I say we are doomed to the point of extinction, I mean we are DOOMED. There’s just no way for even the lamest human to find any reliability, accountability, or faith in governments that have outwardly shouted that they’re not to be trusted and could give a shit about your life.

Convinced. Sounds like I need to invest in a horn. I’m clearly lacking civility.

Shoe horns. My 86 year old father in law still uses one and swears by it. Doesn’t put shoes without the assistance of the horn. I’ve seen it in action, and it seems to work? Even on some tied shoes!

Right on! I still own N2O. Easily one of the best tube shooters ever. The N2O in a CD player was a fun party trick, alongside scanning backwards from track 1 on Less Than Jake’s “Losing Streak.” Made the hidden bonus song(s) at the end of the CD technique seem amateur.

Dopethrone is such a great album. I should have included it in my list. Mclusky Do Dallas was one of my favorite albums from my time co-DJing on college radio. Also had A.R.E. Weapons on heavy rotation those days.

I find there are very few albums that are great beginning to end, and I’m not including “greatest hits” or “Best of…” collections.

1. The Crystal Method - Vegas
2. Bad Mojos - Songs that Make You Wanna Die!
3. GZA - Pro Tools
4. Sloppy Seconds - Destroyed (guilty pleasure of mine)
5. Eddy Current Suppression Ring - Primary Colours