I work a 2 week rotating schedule. 6 nights on/8 night weekend. My 6 days are all in a row, Thursday - Tuesday. I work 2 - 16 hour shifts and 4 - 12 hour shifts which gives me 40 hours in 3 days and 80 hours in 6 days for my 2 week work week. I can pick up 2 16 hour shifts on my “weekend”, get 32 hours of OT, and still have 6 days off. It’s exhausting but I love it. When I’m really short money I’ve worked as many as 7 of my days off and really killed the OT. The downside is that when I work 16 hour shifts I only have time for about 3-4 hours of sleep between shifts what with commuting and showering and eating and getting ready for work and all so it can sometimes be brutal if I pick up too many back to back (I’ve done 3 or 4 in a row and by the end I just want to die).

The anime women are the worst. I don’t like anime, and I’m a heterosexual woman. I don’t want to see my feed consisting of endless half naked anime women. No thanks. Make them go away and stay away.

2025 was also not great for me. Lots of bad stuff, and I lost the last of my friends in 2025 (not dead, just not friends anymore) and my family and relationships are long gone. I’m tired of being completely alone with no one to talk to or even just hang out with. When midnight came tonight I was sitting with one of my two cats on my lap, the only living things I have left. I looked at my cat and said well bud we made it through 2025, here’s hoping 2026 goes better. My wish is to make a friend.

I hope it goes better for you too.

I am proud of the fact that after years of being inactive (partially due to laziness, partially due to health issues that I’ve finally found a doctor who was willing to help me take care of) I rejoined the gym a few weeks ago and have been going regularly. It’s too soon to say I’ve made a habit of it, but it’s already the only good part of my week and I look forward to it, so I’m hoping I can stick with it despite my crazy work and school schedule. I miss being strong and fit.

Wow, congratulations, you should be proud of yourself. I can’t imagine your road here was easy. (No sarcasm intended).

Winnie the Pooh! The episode where they fall down the wishing well instilled in me a lifelong fascination with wishing wells.

I also used to watch a lot of the old Thomas the Tank Engine

Hell I’m desperately trying to forget as much of my life as possible.

My phone wifi hotspot is Kaer Morhen. Not a clever pun at all, but it makes me happy.

I’m not at all religious now, but I was raised Christian. There’s some awful, awful shit in the Bible, but Jesus was such a chill dude. If everyone acted like Jesus, the world would be an awesome place. He was just a hippie who drank wine and hung out with his bros and made friends with prostitutes and outcasts and condemned the church leaders who abused their positions. According to legend he was the legit son of God and yet when he was asked to judge sinners he was like yo dudes that’s not my place only my dad can do that I’m not worthy and neither are any of you, maybe instead of worrying about what other people are doing you should deal with your own issues, ok? Can you imagine if people actually lived like that? I’m not as familiar with other religions, but from what I know other major prophets were pretty chill, cool dudes too. If people actually followed the prophets of their religions instead of being assholes, religion would be great. Instead we have poor people being exploited, women and children being abused, and the entire system is fucked and corrupted because of human nature run amok.

Came here to comment on the religion part. Humans are biologically programmed to be in a tribe and we need an “other” and we need a bad guy. On its own religion could be a neutral or a good thing, but it fits that need for tribalism and a common enemy and feeling superior. It’s the same mindset as nationalism or racism or when fans of sports teams riot and beat the shit out of each other for no reason. If religion never existed humanity would have just discovered some other way to segregate ourselves, feel superior, order each other around with arbitrary rules even the in group can’t agree on, and isolate and kill those who don’t comply. Add in manipulative people who are all too eager to hop into leadership roles and use them for their own power and selfish gain and you have pure evil, but it’s the system, not the religion, that’s a distraction.

FYI, if that ever happens again and you have nail polish remover handy, it dissolves it with no filing required :)

Loneliness. Lima beans. The smell of weed.

I liked the soundtrack much better overall (some of the packs sucked, but I just don’t play them) and I like the movement and flow better than Beat Saber. I’m ok at Beat Saber but was never quite able to hit the hardest difficulty levels. I was playing the hardest difficulty levels on Synth Riders pretty quickly. I think it turns people off because the easier difficulty levels are quite boring, but it’s very good on higher difficulty settings. They’re both good games, it’s very much just personal preference for me.

Beat Saber was fun until I tried Synth Riders.

Then I modded Skyrim VR. All my other VR games have been abandoned forever.

That’s what fixed the rest of what was left of my toxic worldview. I started working in healthcare. I’ve treated people from all over the world. I’ve treated people who speak so many different languages. I’ve treated people of all religions. I’ve treated different gender identities and sexual preferences. I’ve treated people I knew were rapists or murderers (fucking worst, but you grit your teeth and treat them like human beings who need healthcare). I’ve treated so many refugees from various places (love the refugees, keep them in the US!)

All of them are just people. I’ve met a lot of really shitty people and a lot of really good people. It’s hard to hate a group of people when you meet individuals from a particular subset and realize they have the same hopes and fears as you. At the end of the day, we all just want to go to our respective homes and be safe and loved and alive and there shouldn’t be anything political about that.

Talking to him and being a good person can do more than you realize.

I was raised white Christian nationalist, although we didn’t call it that and I wouldn’t have realized that’s what I was. I was taught all the conservative bullshit, both politically and socially. Thankfully there was always a part of me that was like “something isn’t right here” and I kept my mouth shut and was never the bully going around mouthing off to gay kids or minorities, but I definitely thought things like “being gay is a choice” and “poor people should just work harder” and “abortion is something welfare queens do” but also “welfare queens have lots of babies for more money”.

Being around people like you who were nonjudgmental and just talked about their point of view and occasionally gently challenged my beliefs without being confrontational opened my worldview and helped give me the courage to listen to the voice in my head that was saying something felt wrong with the belief system I was raised in. I’d always been taught things like liberals were stupid and lacked critical thinking skills and acted solely on emotions and I was young and kept in a bubble and was dumb enough to believe it until I started meeting people who proved otherwise. That was enough to start the cracks forming that eventually shattered the entire wall of lies. I’m now a raging socialist and I don’t care how people live their lives as long as they aren’t harming anyone else. I don’t think I would have ended up that way if I wasn’t someone who is willing to think for myself and who isn’t afraid to be the “black sheep”, because leaving that mindset lost me my family, but I definitely wouldn’t have ever been able to start down the path I’m on if I was never exposed to people like you who started showing me the lies in the first place.

I live in an area that also has decent bus coverage with stops all over, although I’ve never actually taken the bus. I can’t take the bus to work because there aren’t stops where I need to go. I also attend school 19 miles away, and depending on traffic it’s anywhere from a 30-45 minute drive. Last year my car broke down and I looked into taking the bus to school for the few weeks I would be carless. It would have been a 5 1/2 hour trip each way, I would have had to take 3 or 4 buses, transfer between 2 different companies, and I would have had to walk several miles in between stops to get from the first bus company’s stop to the second’s. Realistically, I couldn’t have even left on time to make it to class or gotten back home while the buses were still running, even if I wanted to waste my life riding buses. I worked an extra 100 hours of OT that month to pay for my rental car.