Sounds like we need 49 more adjustments.

Daily dotworld self-soothing thread.

It’s the spot!

Finding things I can do, and people I can help. Get involved and get organized!

My personal record is 22 hours.

To enjoy myself. What exactly that means, changes over time.

If it doesn’t work out, at least you’ll know and you can move on. If you don’t do it, you’ll regret it forever.

I’m struggling to think of another government that is more hostile to Americans than the US government.

Homie got way into flat-earth bullshit. We (me and other friends) tried everything from ridicule, indulgence, and finally offering “agree to disagree and stop talking about it”. He went no-contact with all of us, sold his house and left town.

Just because my government has a list of enemies, doesn’t mean they’re my enemies too.

Returns? My wife does the same as your coworker, but anything she doesn’t like they refund her and tell her to keep. We call it Freemu.

The free market will provide guillotines if the people truly want them. /s

I take ads as a personal attack on my psyche. I turn my toothpaste around so I’m not looking at the logo. I pirate any shows I want to watch, and I use uBlock Origin in my browser.

I don’t really disagree, but as time goes by, those old ones show their age more and more. I’m using the same one as you for work, and I got a T580 off eBay for personal (replaces my T430s). I don’t know what I’d get if not for used Thinkpads though. One day maybe I can afford/justify one of those boutique Linux laptops.

Edit: I briefly had a T480 and it had problems with the display… apparently widespread.

Newest you can afford. T and P models, or X if you can.

You write well, and you got B’s and C’s in school. This tells me that you’re smarter than you think, but abuse and/or lack of proper support has had an effect on your development and self esteem (which isn’t surprising). You are still at a very young age, when a lot of people are still trying to find their way. I’m not saying any of this to minimize your struggles, but to give you at least a bit of perspective. A lot can change in a year or two when you’re only 23!

For specific advice on resources available to you, it would help people to know at least which country you are in.

Most people aren’t going to bring the butter back in.

This is an attempt at reverse psychology.

Get active. The absolute worst thing you can do is “nothing”. You will feel so much better getting out there and doing good work with your neighbors. Looking for local mutual aid orgs in your area is a good start. If you can’t find any, start one yourself! Another commenter here goes into greater detail, but you can start very small! Or arrange some meetups around skill-sharing. You probably have a useful skill or knowledge that others could benefit from, and I’m sure there’s things you’d like to learn as well. Doing things like this builds community bonds, and strengthens us all. Don’t wallow, get involved!

One day at a time. Every time you want a cigarette but don’t give in, you have built strength. Use that strength to better resist the next urge. Really internalize that what you are doing is strong and powerful. Each victory accumulates and supports those to come.