I’ve always shouting in German compels me to some kind of action, even if I’m sure what they want

What’s better about it?

Deer? Turkey? Rabbits? Feral hogs? Cane toads?

I think the torment nexus is next, but no one would ever build that so we are fine

What the fuck did you just fucking say about yourself, you wonderful person? I’ll have you know that you’re an amazing person and you shouldn’t treat yourself so badly. Your life still has meaning, don’t for 1 fucking second think that it doesn’t. Just because you made a few mistakes, it doesn’t mean you don’t deserve what you have. You are worth so much more than you think. I will shower love and support on you until you recognize that you don’t have to live this way. You are not alone, kiddo.