i have a lot going on besides that. just broke up with a guy, realized i wasn’t even into guys (but it stung more that he didn’t pay attention to me/care regardless), then having some rocky relationships with my gf (open relationship) and long-time friend, the latter i’m cutting contact with. (meaning i will only talk to her if i have to or if she talks to me first)
with all of this, my anxiety’s acting up and i’m a bit (still although it got better) on edge.
I like to pull back a little and see my life from a 3rd person every now and then, while trying to keep a logical and optimistic mindset.
It’s gotten me through a lot in the last 5+ years.